My Lord and Savior

1 Corinthians 15:55-57“Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” .

 

Most people don’t realize how power the name of Jesus is, and I understand that most  people are afraid of the Jesus himself,  not because of what he can do, but because they really don’t know him  or understand him. That is the power of not being educated about something, things we don’t understand we seem to fear the most.

Just like when it comes to life, when I didn’t understand the purpose of my life I was afraid of how I would turn out then truly working building a life that would turn out right, but I became a friend of Jesus my life  begin to see a purpose, a sign of truth and future effort. I know that my life is worth living, and I know this because my Lord and Savior has told me, show me and bless me as I move forward in sharing his words.

I feel so good, and things are so content in my life, not perfect, but content. Even as I walk this journey, I know that will be times I shall fall, but I shall get back up, because I fall doesn’t  mean that I fail at something, it just mean I didn’t weight out all the opinions before I got into the situation, but once I gain my ways, strength again, and I know that I have learn something from this mistake, I am able to hold my balance and begin to take a new step at life, and become stronger in my belief. Praise his name.

We as Christian have to see that we go through things not just because the devil place them before us, because there is things God wants us to learn from, and he want us to grow stronger in our faith. I have also  learn that life can never be all sunshine, for to much sun can cause you to dry out.

Just like a flower, if you never get any rain, you can never grow and become beautiful. The rain is not here to destroy you, because your roots are planted in the love, mercy and grace of God, we are powered and feed by the blood of Jesus. The days of rain, is to help us see what is going on in our lives, and to grow from those mistakes.

Now some of us my have thunder storms in our lives, I know I have had a few, but in the end I was able to rebuild what ever that storm destroyed, because it didn’t take me out, it didn’t take my life, nor did it destroy  my spirit, but it did show me how strong I am with the spirit of the Lord in my life. Praise his name.

For there where times I knew I should have been dead, that I knew I should have been placed behind bars, those times when I knew I would not be loved, but God took those times and gave me a new vision on life, he took those moments to show me it was him that called upon and it is him that will carry  me all the days of my life. You don’t hear me.

As long as I got King Jesus in my life, nothing and I mean nothing in this world nor man can do to be. My God My God. I know that someone out today my hear this and if you do, know that you are a child of God, you are a son of a high king, and servant of a beloved king and all that you need he shall deliver. He said that all you have to do is ask, and he shall answer. Any thing that God said he will do, he shall do. And when you ask God for something, he always keep his  promise’s.

I hope someone out there hear what the word of God is saying. Stop worrying about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care  of itself, it is God who take care of you. Just take it to him. I am a living testimony for all that I have to say. and it is a blessing to be able to share with you today.

I am not going to continue to preach, but I just want to share my joy with you today, not because God do something for me, but because of who he is. My love, my friend, my father, my boss, my counselor, my teacher, my pastor, all my God he is all that I need in my life.

My God bless you all

Apostle Tony R. Smith

Slow To Anger

1 John 3:16“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

Today I guess you can say I found that even as I grow in Christ, I still become a person of anger. I am not talking about being angry with others, but with myself. Sometimes, I set up late studying and reading the materials from school, and I feel I have it in my head, but then when I take the test, it is like I forget everything right then and there, and after I finish struggling over the questions, and fighting my mind over the answer, and then look at the final score, I feel the hate of not being so smart come over me, and I find myself questioning my abilities to become the Counselor I desire to be in life.

I guess there is still more for me to learn even as I learn different values  of being a man of God. I can see how Paul, and John felt at times when they couldn’t or felt that they couldn’t save the souls of those who come into their lives, it is so hard to see yourself not doing something right after you have done all you can to make it work out. But I also come to see that each time we depend upon on our own ways, and our own minds, we seem to fall apart and fail. Now does that apply to school and college class? In ways I guess you can say yes, instead of beating myself down about the grade, why don’t I see the importance of learning and finding others ways to study? Why don’t I realize if I can remove the anger and fear of failure from my mind before I take the test, then maybe I will be able to overcome those moments of failing the test. So you see; right now I am not asking God to make me as smart as Elijah was, but make me able to do what is right even when it comes to studying for class, so I can be more effective in being the person he has created me to be. God Bless

Apostle Tony R. Smith

Needing to relax

Matthew 20: 17-19“[Jesus Again Predicts His Death] Now as Jesus was going up to Jerusalem, he took the twelve disciples aside and said to them, "We are going up to Jerusalem, and the Son of Man will be betrayed to the chief priests and the teachers of the law. They will condemn him to death and will turn him over to the Gentiles to be mocked and flogged and crucified. On the third day he will be raised to life!”

You know some people have asked me why do I write in a blog? Why do I share my most deepest and personal thoughts, and yet no one replies back or comment. Well I hate to say this, but it is  really not for others. I write in this blog because it relax’s my mind, it removes the stress of school at times, family issues,and being a new creature in Christ, when others just don’t seem to understand why I have become saved.

My life has never been perfect, and I don’t really expects for anyone else life to have been perfect, but the things I faith now,  is not as bad as what I was going through in the past. I see myself in a different role, a different world which only cares for what others may think, and I know that when that take over, I will find myself back where I started from. But God has shown me so much, and he has given me so many blessing in my life, why would I go back to my old ways, why would I even consider being the person that I use to be when I know the pain that come with it? Only a fool would choose that life.

Well I was once that fool, now I am not still as smart as a lot of people, but I have a very good idea of what it is to be love, understood and having faith. I never had that before in my life. Even though my family grow up in church, I found it to be only a thing that you must do not love. But now it is the other way around, I am in love with Christ, and I find serving him is one pleasure that will never end, no matter what situation may come into  my life. Like I said I am far from being perfect, but I learn something new each day.

What I have learn today is how to handle problems that just pop up out of no where. We can’t stop certain things from happening, but you can stop it from causing you to fall apart, that is why when stress, anger, confusion or even just pain come into my life, I stop for a minute and I think about why this  is happening, I figure  out what purpose does have that will either keep me alive or destroy me. Sometimes, I find myself telling God how I can handle this pain, this stress any longer, then there are times when it doesn’t even bother me. But I come to see that I am going through, and what I shall face in the future, is preparing me for something Great God has for me within my life.

Maybe a few people will one day read this blog, and maybe no body will ever know that I write it, but what matters to me is that it gives me a chance to sit down and talk with my father, and my savior about what is on my mind, and then feel the very relief come into my soul and I know that it is going to be alright in the end. Like now, I know that he have truly found me a peace of mind through writing. May God grant you a peace of mind as well.

The Apostle