How time can break you down!

I know I have written within this blog for along time, and I have good reason why,many things has taken place within these past months, from the physcial aspect to he mental as well as the spiritual, and yet my mind and heart is still serving the Lord. Like Job, I refuse to allow the devil to win, to destroy all that has been built within me by the hands of my father, my savior and teacher.

When life seem to go wrong, it don't just rain, it pours, and the more it pours the more you begin to feel as if you are going to float away, and there is no one that can save you. But how wrong we are, everything in our lives is not cause by the devil, nor is it meant to destroy you. How do I know, just these few months my mind and heart was full of pain, discomfort, confusion and bewilderment, and those stages alone almost cost my relationship with God. I was mad and I felt abandon by him for a while. Now you may say, how is that possible when you are a ordain minister. And yet that may be true, but I am still human, and I still feel pain, and still get confused. That is one of the reason why I believe God allowed to start this blog, to show the world no matter how gifted we may be mentally, spiritually, and emotionally, we still have a very hard time overcoming obstacles that truly cost pain in our lives.

Some people may ask what could be so bad for you to feel anger toward God. Well for one, I have been determine to have Liver cancer, don't ask me how, because I don't drink, never have and never well. But I use to smoke. So that may have been the case to this, then while attending doctors and getting things I need to prepare for this trial, I was released from my job over a lie that one of the clients I tried to help decided that I was there for them as much as I should of been. This is why it is a most as professional counselor you must make sure you have boundaries, because some individuals with mental problems begin to feel you are there for them and only them, and when that doesn't happen situation that I had to face will occur. You may could have said I could have frought for my job back, which is true, especially after I provide that it was a false statement on the clients behalf, but for some strange reason, I felt as if that job wasn't for me, at least that place of employment, because I felt betrayed, there was any form of trust there, especially after they found out that I was a man of God, and that I believe that there are times when medication and spirituality can and will work in a person life is they so believe and allow God to move. Well that is another rule one must be very careful about, you can't bring forth your own personal judgment or thoughts within a place of business, for others who may not feel the same way you do will feel disrespect or become argumentative toward your belief, and this is not just with the clients. (LOL)

So now here I was working on treatment, and now employment, I come to find out that the last class that I need to graduate isn't offered until the Summer term, which I wasn't told this, for I know this I would have taken this course last Summer or the Summer before then. So with that being said, always check with your advisor about your course and when they are being offered or you may end up like me, wondering where and how you are going to get the money to pay for this course, or you will not be graudating. Now can you imagine how I feel right now. Can you think of ways to make me smile?
Well I can only say, God has ways. No I the cancer is not gone, I am going through treatment now, which I have to make sure my class work is done because there are days when my body hurts so bad and I just can't move or think right.
No I do not have a job, which now I see why allow me to lose this employment at this time, because of the fact of the pain and discomfort I am now going through with treatment, and sooner or later they was either going to make me use up all my sick time or let me go. No I haven't figured out how I am going to get the money to pay for the last class for the summer session in order to graduate. But what I do know, Just like Job, I will not let go of my Father, I will lose faith within my Savior, and I will keep the Holy Spirit close to my heart and soul, for I know that by the will of God all things are possible by his hands and not by man.
So no matter what you are going through, no matter how you may feel,no matter what others may see, keep God first in your life, and I promise you he will make a way for everything to be alright.
God Bless you all.
Rev. Tony R. Smith

Just thinking

Look how time is flying by. I feel as everything that God is placing before me is just opening up many doors to show the world his glory and how much he love us so. There are times when I wonder if this world truly  understand the love God has for all his children, and if they do, can they truly realize how important it is to grant others that same love in return?

When you think about how Jesus Christ gave his life so that we may have life, it will open your heart to the diven knowledge of how true Love should be. I don’t know if I could have gave my life, and to this day, I ask myself how far will I go to show others how much I love them and respect them. As humans we think about it before we do it, but Christ didn’t even blink an eye, he done exactly what his father asked of him, and he gave his life so  that we may know the value of love and a true and beautiful love. I thank him for granting me that love, for it has given me the courage to say to you. I Love You, and I pray that you will one day share this love with others.

May God Bless you.

The Apostle

God’s Will

I know that it has been a while since I have written here, but I pray that each time I do write, it uplift the next person to know that God is real and if you just believe in him he shall direct your path.

I have been working very hard at my internship course, and I have been doing a lot of traveling sharing the world of God with a ministry called United Association of Christian Chaplains & Counselor Ministry International. And I tell you it has been a very spiritual and supportive week. God has been so good, and so rewarding I sometimes have to  ask him why? Why have he given me this blessing or why have you place this goodness in my life.

I ask these things because I know why he love me so, and I give praise to him for loving him. God has open up so many doors. At this point, I have been anointed and appointed as the Regional Overseer of the United Evangelical Church of America and the United Association of Christian Chaplains and Counselor Ministry International. Never would I thought I would have made it this far, especially when my life was not of God will. I know that as soon as I continue to allow God to lead me my life will never be the same, and I know that life will have so many adventures.

I don’t like truly saying that my life will have trials and tribulations, because we have all them, but when God come forth into your life those trials and tribulations become lesson’s to learn and problems to overcome, so I call them Adventures, for each step bring forth a new challenge in life. Especially when the devil is on your heels trying to break you down. Amen

Well I am not going to keep you long, but I pray that each person that decide to write my blog know that God is will is the way.

All so I know have a ministry that give away free spiritual books on the knowing about the water and spirit. All you have to do is send me a email at: newlifecom@sbcglobal.net, give me your information address, so I can send you the books.

Until then I will pray for you always.

Your friend in Christ

Overseer Reverend Tony R. Smith

He also confirms his decision that he makes in your life.

Ecclesiastes 11:5“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.”

 

It is so great to know that God always, grants you a vision, and yet he make sure that he grants you provision to confirm what he has for you to do in this life. Here I am so  grateful what he has decided to do in my life, and how he has now chosen me to become the new Regional Overseer for the United Association of Christian Chaplains and Counselor Ministries International and United Evangelical Association Ministries, for the state of Illinois, Iowa, Michigan, Indiana.

I praise his name not because of the things he do for me, but because of the love he has for me and for who he is. The things he do for me are a blessing that I enjoy, but serving him and sharing with others how God can and will change your life if you truly say yes to your calling. I tell everyone I meet how God took a man from the deepest ruins of his sinful nature and turn him into a man of God’s glory and  love. Some people believe  me, then there are others who just can’t believe how I once lived my life and how I am today.

But what they must understand is that I didn’t do this on my own, it was the love of God that done all that is within me today. I live by his words and love, and even as I continue to grow strong in his love and mercy, I am still learning on a daily bases to know him more on a personal level. I admit that I am not perfect, I still have things that must change as I grow as the man God has created me to be, but I learn from these mistakes, and I ask my father to forgive for them. So as I say to all you today, God is the real, and he can and will change the your life. What he promise to us, he has never change that promise. Just ask his son; Jesus Christ.

God Bless you all.

Regional Overseer Apostle Tony R. Smith

In his loving arms!

 

Philippians 4:6-7“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” .

There is so much about life even I haven’t learn yet. I been working over time trying to get my grades in order, and to make sure that i am doing the will of God, like he has given unto me to do.

Most people don’t realize that it is hard to keep doing what is right, or how to make sure that you are not out here doing what others may feel is wrong. I something feel as if I am being watch, or that every move I make people are betting to see if i am going to fall apart and fail. My intentions is not to be perfect or greater then the next men, but to just show the world how God took a nobody, and turn him into somebody, in order to tell everybody about this special someone. Nothing more is on my mind but to do as God has placed me in the stages of life to do.

   Even as I work on developing the vision he has given me, and with every step it seems as if I have so many disappointments, and I ask God if you know that it wasn’t going to be easy why didn’t you give me someone in my life that is trust worthy, dependable and willing to work with me and not against me. I know that his plans is greater then mines, and yet I still wonder am I doing things right. Have anyone felt that way? At this point, i am starting my internship at the Proctor Hospital here in Peoria IL. and the strangest things about that is, they really don’t want you to say the name Jesus or God, but to use the terms of Higher Power. Even though I can understand that everyone don’t believe in God or use the name God or Jesus, they may still have a sense of faith, so I have to be very careful how I present the strength of faith to others because i am a man of God, i am Preacher, Minister , Pastor as other may call me.

But at the same time I love the work that I am doing, just seeing these young men and women getting their life in order, after battling a disease called addiction is one true statement of faith.

So at this point, I pray that with each step that I am making God give me the strength to be more then a man of words, but a man of his action. Or as he said about David, i would like to be that man after God’s own heart.

Apostle Tony I. Smith

My Lord and Savior

1 Corinthians 15:55-57“Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” .

 

Most people don’t realize how power the name of Jesus is, and I understand that most  people are afraid of the Jesus himself,  not because of what he can do, but because they really don’t know him  or understand him. That is the power of not being educated about something, things we don’t understand we seem to fear the most.

Just like when it comes to life, when I didn’t understand the purpose of my life I was afraid of how I would turn out then truly working building a life that would turn out right, but I became a friend of Jesus my life  begin to see a purpose, a sign of truth and future effort. I know that my life is worth living, and I know this because my Lord and Savior has told me, show me and bless me as I move forward in sharing his words.

I feel so good, and things are so content in my life, not perfect, but content. Even as I walk this journey, I know that will be times I shall fall, but I shall get back up, because I fall doesn’t  mean that I fail at something, it just mean I didn’t weight out all the opinions before I got into the situation, but once I gain my ways, strength again, and I know that I have learn something from this mistake, I am able to hold my balance and begin to take a new step at life, and become stronger in my belief. Praise his name.

We as Christian have to see that we go through things not just because the devil place them before us, because there is things God wants us to learn from, and he want us to grow stronger in our faith. I have also  learn that life can never be all sunshine, for to much sun can cause you to dry out.

Just like a flower, if you never get any rain, you can never grow and become beautiful. The rain is not here to destroy you, because your roots are planted in the love, mercy and grace of God, we are powered and feed by the blood of Jesus. The days of rain, is to help us see what is going on in our lives, and to grow from those mistakes.

Now some of us my have thunder storms in our lives, I know I have had a few, but in the end I was able to rebuild what ever that storm destroyed, because it didn’t take me out, it didn’t take my life, nor did it destroy  my spirit, but it did show me how strong I am with the spirit of the Lord in my life. Praise his name.

For there where times I knew I should have been dead, that I knew I should have been placed behind bars, those times when I knew I would not be loved, but God took those times and gave me a new vision on life, he took those moments to show me it was him that called upon and it is him that will carry  me all the days of my life. You don’t hear me.

As long as I got King Jesus in my life, nothing and I mean nothing in this world nor man can do to be. My God My God. I know that someone out today my hear this and if you do, know that you are a child of God, you are a son of a high king, and servant of a beloved king and all that you need he shall deliver. He said that all you have to do is ask, and he shall answer. Any thing that God said he will do, he shall do. And when you ask God for something, he always keep his  promise’s.

I hope someone out there hear what the word of God is saying. Stop worrying about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care  of itself, it is God who take care of you. Just take it to him. I am a living testimony for all that I have to say. and it is a blessing to be able to share with you today.

I am not going to continue to preach, but I just want to share my joy with you today, not because God do something for me, but because of who he is. My love, my friend, my father, my boss, my counselor, my teacher, my pastor, all my God he is all that I need in my life.

My God bless you all

Apostle Tony R. Smith

Slow To Anger

1 John 3:16“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

Today I guess you can say I found that even as I grow in Christ, I still become a person of anger. I am not talking about being angry with others, but with myself. Sometimes, I set up late studying and reading the materials from school, and I feel I have it in my head, but then when I take the test, it is like I forget everything right then and there, and after I finish struggling over the questions, and fighting my mind over the answer, and then look at the final score, I feel the hate of not being so smart come over me, and I find myself questioning my abilities to become the Counselor I desire to be in life.

I guess there is still more for me to learn even as I learn different values  of being a man of God. I can see how Paul, and John felt at times when they couldn’t or felt that they couldn’t save the souls of those who come into their lives, it is so hard to see yourself not doing something right after you have done all you can to make it work out. But I also come to see that each time we depend upon on our own ways, and our own minds, we seem to fall apart and fail. Now does that apply to school and college class? In ways I guess you can say yes, instead of beating myself down about the grade, why don’t I see the importance of learning and finding others ways to study? Why don’t I realize if I can remove the anger and fear of failure from my mind before I take the test, then maybe I will be able to overcome those moments of failing the test. So you see; right now I am not asking God to make me as smart as Elijah was, but make me able to do what is right even when it comes to studying for class, so I can be more effective in being the person he has created me to be. God Bless

Apostle Tony R. Smith